Alright, so I tried it the other way and now I don’t know. What am I talking about? I read this chapter last night and while the details are fresh, I have really had time to analyze and think about what I read. But what the heck, let’s give it a whirl.

In this chapter, we get more of the details about how Winston’s relationship is working. I would call it the honeymoon phase as everything seems to be new and exciting. It talks about strategies to avoid detection and how they interracted.

It would seem like this chapter is light if you are just following along with the story. However, within the dialog some of the more hard-hitting points of the book are addressed. Certainly, I agree with the early ideas like without freedom, there is no real happiness. Those were just distractions to what Orwell is really getting to.

Motivation is Driven by Absence: Within the context of the dialog, Julia is talking about how a contented population is much less likely to want to rally to politics and aggression. I think that we have all heard the concept that hunger drives action. It is the same reason why the political dichotomy works.

Victory Without Clear Moral Justification is Empty: This was an interesting one. Winston talks about his opportunity to push his wife off a cliff. But as much as the idea appeals to him, he would never do it because there was nothing that circumstantially would have changed. Within Winston’s speculation, he would have been in the same position that he was in now.

These two things really strike a chord with me. This is what I was trying to write about on Monday, As much as I had what I wanted and proved that my ideas worked, it didn’t change my situation. My passion to prove what I was trying to do kept me going until it was complete. The emptiness of achieving what I set out to do and my situation not changing was too demoralizing. .

I suppose that it was in my deep subconscious, because I really didn’t put these things together fully until I started analyzing it a couple of weeks ago. I knew in my conscious brain that things were not going to change. I knew that I couldn’t gain anything with a victory lap and that it was only for personal satisfaction. But, I wanted the validation that my methods were viable.

Not being educated in psychology, it only seems intuitive that this is a process. Once we have achieved, we can now move on in our mental frame to the next idea or challenge. In my case, I felt trapped and dismayed. I didn’t want to expend the energy to look for a new job while I was working this time.

It is not yet clear to me how this information will drive my future goals. I will say that I can learn from it and try to be aware and not fall into the same traps. I guess that is a wonder in life is that our experiences make us who we are. Those that really analyze these waterfall events probably gain substantially from a personal standpoint.

Change Your Programming Routine: It is strange because I had no idea that this was going to be the result when I started writing this today. I guess that is the power of journaling. It organizes thoughts and forces connections to seemingly unrelated topics. I don’t think that I am trying to draw a relationship that doesn’t exist, it seems clear to me. I hope that I translated it adequately. Have a good weekend.